And it was like slow motion, standing there in my party dress with red lipstick and no one to impress. That was the moment I knew.
Mom, listen. I haven’t been together with Topanga for twenty-two year, but we have been together for sixteen. ‘Kay that’s a lot longer than most couples have been together. I mean, when we were born, you told me that we used to take walks in our strollers together in the park. When we were two, we were best friends, I mean, I, I knew everything about this girl. I knew her favorite color. I knew her favorite food. Then we became six, you know, and Eric made fun of me because it wasn’t cool to have a best friend that was a girl, or even know a girl. So for the next seven years, I threw dirt at her. I call those “the lost years”. Then I was thirteen, Mom, she put me up against my locker and she kissed me. I mean, she gave me my first kiss. She taught me how to dance. She was always talking about these and I never understood a word she said. All I understood was that she was the girl I sat up every night thinking about, and when I’m with her I feel happy to be alive. Like I can do anything, even talk to you like this. So that’s, that’s what I feel love is, Mom…when I’m better because she’s here. And now she won’t be. So I’m finished.